today i woke up with a red eye and a sensitive nose which cant stop sniffing n sneezing -_-''

sometimes i get very irritated by my nose.when its cold at night,i cant help rubbing it.note..it's rubbing,not digging.-.-
and then i sneeze like crazy.

have you ever notice how fast a day can pass?
we have 24 hours a day.that makes 1440 mins per day and 86400 sec per day..wait..izzit right?haha.
pardon me if that's wrong.

anyway yea,a day is like..so fast.
we open our eyes in the morning,had breakfast(and some even sleep till there is no need for breakfast),bathed,step outta e house,return by evening,have dinner,watch a lil tv,surf a lil internet and back to sleep again.

it's pretty scary when i think of this is how a day is gone and our life could pretty much just end like this,everyday lost.

as we grew up...we found someone we fancy,gang of friends we clicked with,start working,spends time outside more.we started to spend lesser and lesser time with our family,our parents.

and i really wonder what kinda feelings or how they are dealing with it.
say as we grow,they age too..and that is the period of time we are gonna spend lesser and lesser time with them.

i guess on one part,they really understand that their children have all grown up and is starting to have a life of their own.and that they have to let them lead their own life too.

but really...inside they feel so lonely.
i feel very bad each time that i have to go out to meet my friends,jason and leave my daddy at home.sometimes i dun even come back home for dinner.

i knew it will be better for them that there is a prescence of me in the house although i seldom help them out or really really..just engage in a decent conversation.

im one of those that are though close to parents but there is a lack of mutual coversation b/w us.i do the listenings most of the time and i dunno how to answer back too.

sigh...

i just feel very bad.

and now that i understand..i guess i know why that they are still willing to look after their grandchildren and hopes that their children gave them as many grandchildren as possible.

coz perhaps to them..it was somewhat a resemblance of their own children.they are 'returning' to the time when we were kids and need their love,care and attention so much.

sigh...

i wish i can give them more..
i know they wish to retire in Hainan Islands..they love the simplicity of life there.and of coz the fact that they could live like the richs.haha.

even if i cant do that...i just hope that i could perhaps bring or let them go on holidays to enjoy the rest of their lives.